30-Day Blogging Challenge
Day 25: Would you rather date someone plain with an amazing personality or someone beautiful with a plain personality?
At this point, please just leave me alone.
Tuesday, 28 March 2017
Day 24: repetitive thoughts
30-Day Blogging Challenge
Day 24: Seven things that cross your mind a lot
7- Life of animals. If I see an animal around I wonder about his or her life, and if there are no animals around I start thinking about animals I read about or saw before.
6- My purpose in life. Or the entire purpose of life. I think about how to make life meaningful and what that means.
5- Family. I am very close to my parents and sisters, and their comings and goings occupy a big chunk of my thoughts.
4- Destiny. Whether things happen in a pre-destined way or not, whether the choices we make are the direct consequence of the person we believe we are based on our past, determinism, etc.
3- To-do's. I try to think about the day and what the plan is, and arrange and re-arrange the plan constantly. Sometimes I overthink this and end up confusing myself, and it's very frustrating >.<
2- Day dreams. All types of scenarios involving all kinds of peoples and worlds.
1- Anxiety. General anxious and mild paranoid thoughts, re-living social interactions and cringing, blaming myself when things don't go as plan, try to envision every possible scenario to be best prepared for everything every time...
Day 24: Seven things that cross your mind a lot
7- Life of animals. If I see an animal around I wonder about his or her life, and if there are no animals around I start thinking about animals I read about or saw before.
6- My purpose in life. Or the entire purpose of life. I think about how to make life meaningful and what that means.
5- Family. I am very close to my parents and sisters, and their comings and goings occupy a big chunk of my thoughts.
4- Destiny. Whether things happen in a pre-destined way or not, whether the choices we make are the direct consequence of the person we believe we are based on our past, determinism, etc.
3- To-do's. I try to think about the day and what the plan is, and arrange and re-arrange the plan constantly. Sometimes I overthink this and end up confusing myself, and it's very frustrating >.<
2- Day dreams. All types of scenarios involving all kinds of peoples and worlds.
1- Anxiety. General anxious and mild paranoid thoughts, re-living social interactions and cringing, blaming myself when things don't go as plan, try to envision every possible scenario to be best prepared for everything every time...
Day 23: A letter to someone, anyone
30-Day Blogging Challenge
Day 23: A letter to someone, anyone.
Honestly, this entry is the reason I stopped the challenge in the first place. I don't generally leave things unsaid, preferring to make my peace.
But it all happened in the literal blink of an eye and I just sort of clamped shut with the same violent speed with which I had opened up.
I kinda did see it coming, can't lie, but what the fuck, you know. How does one even make such a decision in one day. You know what? I don't want to know these things. I don't see how any details about the situation are going to change the impact. We joked how you didn't give a fuck but the truth is that I honestly knew this side of you was going to hurt me. I'm not reckless because I'm fragile, and I think that's one of the things I liked about you so much. How you just went for it without even considering. But because of that I am now sad and disappointed.Before you crashed into my life I was doing quite well and content. It even took convincing from others to give you a chance, you goddamn idiot. I'm sorry, you're not an idiot. The truth is that I understand, I mean, what else could you do? There's nothing more to it, but it's still the thorn in my eye. No matter how loud I try to be, I cannot drown the thoughts that said I'm a fucking Monet, beautiful from a distance but a mess up close. And I think probably you never even thought anything like that, but you did pursue me first and made a lot of the first moves, so what gives? Up-close disappointment, am I right?Fuck.I hate that I have so little control over my own self-image. I hate that I thought you'd give me a warm lovely memory but you gave a bruise and I fell back at least three steps and I'm fucking sad but I have to pretend that I'm not because fuck you. You be sad. No, be happy.
Goodbye.
Day 23: A letter to someone, anyone.
Honestly, this entry is the reason I stopped the challenge in the first place. I don't generally leave things unsaid, preferring to make my peace.
But it all happened in the literal blink of an eye and I just sort of clamped shut with the same violent speed with which I had opened up.
Goodbye.
Wednesday, 22 February 2017
Tuesday, 21 February 2017
Day 21: good and bad
30-Day Blogging Challenge
Day 21: turn-ons and turn-offs
On:
confidence
capability
cute face
can handle adulting
patience
gets my sense of humor
comfortable
makes things less awkward
shows a lot of interest
good with hints
respect
dorky but cute
Off:
arrogance
insecurity
no physical attraction
disrespect
ignorance
lack of enthusiasm
awkward
bad jokes
embarrassing
inconsiderate
unaware of others/surroundings
afraid to be silly :3
I guess I like people I vibe well with, who I find easy to talk to and interesting to get to know. I am quite insecure and anxious already when talking to people so I prefer genuinely confident people because they tend to be more comfortable. I dislike if they don't consider me their equal in any capacity, but also dislike if they're disinterested in helping when I need. Same humor is essential, also I don't like people if my family doesn't like them XD It might seem harsh but my family is a big part of my life, we're close and I spend a lot of time with them or talking to them, so I won't like people my family doesn't like.
Finally, I am enthusiastic and want people to come along for whatever I come up with at the moment, and people who don't at least some times feel the call for adventure will quickly be dropped :/
Day 21: turn-ons and turn-offs
On:
confidence
capability
cute face
can handle adulting
patience
gets my sense of humor
comfortable
makes things less awkward
shows a lot of interest
good with hints
respect
dorky but cute
Off:
arrogance
insecurity
no physical attraction
disrespect
ignorance
lack of enthusiasm
awkward
bad jokes
embarrassing
inconsiderate
unaware of others/surroundings
afraid to be silly :3
I guess I like people I vibe well with, who I find easy to talk to and interesting to get to know. I am quite insecure and anxious already when talking to people so I prefer genuinely confident people because they tend to be more comfortable. I dislike if they don't consider me their equal in any capacity, but also dislike if they're disinterested in helping when I need. Same humor is essential, also I don't like people if my family doesn't like them XD It might seem harsh but my family is a big part of my life, we're close and I spend a lot of time with them or talking to them, so I won't like people my family doesn't like.
Finally, I am enthusiastic and want people to come along for whatever I come up with at the moment, and people who don't at least some times feel the call for adventure will quickly be dropped :/
Sunday, 19 February 2017
Day 20: Concerts
30-Day Blogging Challenge
Day 20: Concerts you have attended
Foo Fighters, My Chemical Romance, Mindless Self Indulgence, Deftones, Serj Tankian, Good Charlotte, The Rabble, The Used, Taking Back Sunday, Twin Atlantic, We The Kings, Sum 41, The Matches, 30 Seconds To Mars, Reuben...
Off the top of my head, I think that's about half :3
Day 20: Concerts you have attended
Foo Fighters, My Chemical Romance, Mindless Self Indulgence, Deftones, Serj Tankian, Good Charlotte, The Rabble, The Used, Taking Back Sunday, Twin Atlantic, We The Kings, Sum 41, The Matches, 30 Seconds To Mars, Reuben...
Off the top of my head, I think that's about half :3
Day 19: History
30-Day Blogging Challenge
Day 19: A list of all the places you've lived at.
I'm sorry but since my blog is public, I don't think I want to divulge much. I'm already quite personal (to my standards) so I wouldn't want to put myself at risk.
I'm skipping this one.
Day 19: A list of all the places you've lived at.
I'm sorry but since my blog is public, I don't think I want to divulge much. I'm already quite personal (to my standards) so I wouldn't want to put myself at risk.
I'm skipping this one.
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